Thursday, March 25, 2010

Roller Coasters

I cannot stand how life throws you rollercoasters. I like things to be fun. Working. Smooth. Alright you can all stop laughing. I am serious here. There are short periods of time when things just go right for people. Like the young summer love that is just perfect for 3 whole months. The blur of first being able to drive. These are usually instances that are just great while they last and either end up imploding or just losing its allure through regularity. Anyways, moving on.

Right now things are just not going well. Mom is fine, Kim is in holding, I have a broken leg and I am just a bit tired. It is like there are just things in my life that when they start to go sour, everything goes down hill with great speed and motivation.

Right now I am struggling with so many things on my mind. That I cannot focus on any one thing. I am actually currently, watching a documentary, writing a test and updating my blog. I am a freak of inattentiveness. When things start to go crazy it always has to leak into my personal life too, my life of relationships. I don't like that. I don't like feeling icky and uneasy.

I wish I could go to sleep and just wake up when it is all over again.