Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Broken Heart

Do you know those moments when you can just feel your heart breaking? When you realize that you care so much about somebody but they are destroying you at the same time? It was almost like that.

I think as individuals we get into these self destructive modes where we say things that we don't necessarily mean. Where we do things that are not really the way we want things to come out. I feel like something has happened to make us stray so far off course that the anger we feel for other people and other situations plays against those people that mean the most to us. I fear that there are things that are said that were not meant. I fear that the damage is un-mendable. When are we going to forget about our hostilities to others and just be us with us?

Yesterday was a bad day. It was one of those days that you hope was just a dream when you wake up in the morning...I woke up this morning and nothing can take away the things that were said, the pain that is caused, or the anxiety that it leaves.

are we over?

1 comment:

Kristen Svozil said...

The damage is not un-mendable, we all regret things and everyone has stuff they need to apologize for, it is a sad result of being imperfect and not always knowing what we want. Luckily it doesn't have to stop us from being able to be happy. We just tend to get distracted and forget what is really important.

I hope today goes better!