I have yet to figure out how to perfectly deal with my anxiety and depression within my everyday life. Some days are fantastic and I have no issue; other days it takes all the power within my being to make it all the way through the day. There are times when I cannot even get dressed or function in the same room as others. I can literally feel the anxiety building within me and yet I am helpless to do anything to stop the problem.
I am currently sitting in another educational summer training. As I listen to others talking around me I can feel the anxiety boiling under my skin. I can feel my heart racing and my hands beginning to shake. How can I possibly handle being here all day for the next three days?
Some days things are ok. Other days I am helpless to stop the runaway train of my emotions.
Today is a runaway train day.