The Mystery Within

So a little over a week ago on the 15th of July, I was at work. I excused myself from my student and went to the bathroom and proceeded to get very very sick. After my first student left I tried to eat something to see if that would help. I finally got somebody to cover the rest of my shift and went home. Over the course of the following week I could not keep anything down, food, liquids or otherwise. After 3 straight days of vomiting I decided to go to the ER. Jt drove me to the ER at 9:30pm. We were finally called back at 12:45am and proceeded to stay there until 5:30am. After nine hours in the ER, having been stabbed 5 times to try and get an IV, and a plethora of medications for nausea and pain they had determined nothing.

Two more days of vomiting enduced a trip to my regular doctor. He gave me another shot of nausea medication, another bag of fluids and insisted that I get in to get the upper endoscopy that I was supposed to get months ago asap. I called to schedule the test the following day. Thankfully they had a cancellation for yesterday at 2:30pm. Jt was able to rearrange his work schedule so he could drive me to Elk Grove to get this test. After getting another IV (2 more stabbings) they knocked me out. I was given a mouth block thing so that I would not chomp down on the camera and they then navigated a camera down my throat into my stomach. I was semi-conscienous for the whole thing which was really uncomfortable. After it was over and Jt was back in the room (I would not have remembered the conversations had they just told me) they pronounced that I had a HUGE mystery lump in my stomach. While they were in there they grabbed out samples to biopsy but they also wanted to send me for a CT scan. The Dr. is not sure whether this lump is growing inside my stomach or outside and pushing the stomach wall in. For a doctors office that took 3 months to schedule my initial tests (and then cancel them) they were able to get me in to a CT scan very quickly. I have a scan set up for Monday afternoon. Apparently if they feel you have a life threatening sickness they speed up the tests a lot and make appointments out of nowhere.

Next week is going to be busy. Not only do I find out about my scans and the mystery lump but I also find out if I get the new job with Natomas Charter school. We will see. Keep me in your good thoughts please.

Time Continuing to Move

Life right now is very strange. I have made a million plans to prevent my current state. I have educated myself and put in the training necessary in order to procur a stable job. I actually thought "there will always be dumb people that need educating therefore being a teacher is a smart idea!" Boy was I wrong. I never imagined a budget crisis that would put hundreds of teachers out of work. I have sent out over 40 resumes to various schools and other jobs and yet I am still without employment. This is seriously frustrating. I have been offered the possibility of working as a ranch hand on a friend's ranch in Redding. This sounds like it would be hard work but ultimately very stress free and relaxing. I might actually take this into consideration.

I have no place to live still. August 16th marks my last day of housing and the first day of homelessness. I could find a new apartment but without a job I doubt that I will be much of an asset in any apartment complex. I also don't want to get an apartment somewhere and find that it is a couple hours away from the job I am eventually given. This is a highly stressful sensation, knowing that things will ultimately work out but not knowing how, when or where.

I just hope that it works out soon and I am not left in a state of uncretainty for much longer.

I have a second interview with Natomas Charter School...hopefully it goes well.

The 4th of July...a Day to Remember

Yesterday was amazing beyond amazing!

In the morning I decided to clean the kitchen and in so doing i found 3 bananas that had been forgotten about...hating throwing food away (especially when I am poor)...I decided to make banana bread. I have never made banana bread so it was a new adventure and seriously the easiest thing I have ever made. The bread turned out great! I think that this will actually be something i continue to do in the future.

After bread I went to play golf with Jt. We were able to get a full round in because absolutely nobody was on the golf course and we never had to wait once or hurry up because people were behind us...it was awesome! While we were golfing I was able fix my swing with a little help from the Jt and then I had the best round ever! I even birdied 4! It was fabulous.

Once we were done golfing the sun was almost completely down and so we went to the driving range to hit some balls and wait for the fireworks. While we were there we played with the fireworks we had bought in Woodland because I have never played with fireworks. I know it is miraculous but true. We were never allowed to get any when I was a kid. They are the coolest things I have ever experienced. I really love fire! :)

Our night ended with a lot of bangs and laughter. By the time we got home it was almost midnight. I slept so well. I did not get up until noon! It was fabulous!

Interview Process

So I seriously despise the interview process. I mean seriously who thought this up? You have to get prepared days ahead of time through research and getting everything compiled in order to have your resources: resume, references, letters of rec, transcripts, credentials, list of productions, lesson portfolio, production portfolio...blah blah blah. Seriously the list just goes on and on. Once all this is in place you must obviously get up (usually earlier than you want to), make yourself overly dressed and presentable and then you have to try and make yourself sound freaking perfect without lying about your flaws. Ugh. I feel like a circus monkey.

"Hello program coordinator Tammy...I am Brittney the circus monkey. I would like to work here"