It is really strange to think about life when you really set back and look. I have been trying to do this at work lately. I know that I don't have the big picture and I am aware of current economic situation where we are all lucky if we even have a job. However, I also know that there are decent ways to treat people and there are some things that are just unacceptable. When I was originally called back to Vanden they offered me a full time position. Over the next few phone calls the position just kept falling until it landed on 60%. Ok, well I can make 60% work somehow. I will figure it out. I was told that I would be done teaching by 4th period which would give me the entire afternoon to do other things. I currently teach first, fifth and sixth period. In case you don't know how schooling works because you didn't pay attention or you have just forgotten how to count, five and six do not usually follow one. It is just not how things work. Because of my schedule I have this lovely 4 hour break in the middle of the day that I do nothing. I cannot get another job because there is nowhere to work nearby. It is beyond frustrating and simply exhausting to tell the truth. Since that initial hiring back I am also having the problem that they keep offering me opportunities to teach new classes and then taking them away. Every time I turn around the powers that be are changing something that inevitablly messes me up. I am tired of battling. I am tired of working incessantly and yet not being paid. I long for the simplicity of former years where I would teach all day and then go home.
There is nothing that I can do about my current situation except quit. There is not much I can change that will help provide for my family or help put money back into my savings account. Ultimately I have only one decision: keep working at Vanden or leave for something else. There is nothing else so that leaves me with the former.
I am almost 90% sure that I will not be at Vanden after June 4...now we are just counting down the days until the torture ends.